Friday, September 28, 2007




my sisters and i haven't been getting along lately. I think it's because my younger sister recently gave her life to Christ and the devil is mad and is trying to divided and conqour us one by one so we don't have unity in Christ. Please pray that this is just bound up and taken away by Jesus so we can love each other and not have devision.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

I feel like i haven't posted in ages, and that's probably true :P and now i'm posting when i should be starting to read my books on the German and Romantic Lied. :P

Mostly though, i feel like recently, i've been so busy, but i've been seeing God's work in my life like never before. So many things have happened recently that all i can say is "Praise God!" because that's what it is. Things i've been praying for (and i know others have been too) are happening and it's exciting to be in a time where you can see God answer prayers.

Answered Prayer - my list is getting longer - Allie and Bruce, their relationship; Fiona, accepting Jesus!! Student Life, it's growing so big and our leadership team is so committed to growing and winning people to Christ; Church, the Youth Movie night went of with a bang, "big group" Sunday School discussion runs well, there is so much support for what i'm trying to do, I'm preaching again in 6 weeks, what a great opportunity to talk to people about Jesus! David, every Monday a new spiritual conversation! and he is thinking about things more than dismissing them as before; Ricky, saying himself that all it would take is a mirical for him to become Christian. Wow - the amount of time i spend discussing the bible with him, and then that he spends discussing the bible with others as well as "eavesdropping" on our bible study... the list goes on.

I am so in awe that God would use me. I am so privileged to be apart of God's plan for his world. He doesn't need to use me, i have no reason to boast, because i'm little more than a servant, but God has raised me to a place of honor so i can boast in him and tell of his Glory all day long.

Weee it's exciting to be apart of God's plan. And to go from servant to beloved Daughter. :D woo hoo for God!

Colossians 2:6&7
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

Monday, July 16, 2007

So on Saturday night, possibly the very first Youth Movie Night ever was held at St Matthews Anglican Church Holland Park. It was a scary scary adventure and I had a fair amount of opposition from a few people and I think everyone, even me had their doubts, but God really came through and blessed the night; everyone remained safe and healthy, the games were fun, the pizza tasted great and the atmosphere was happy.

I had a prayer goal of 15 people and when 13 was the final number (2 people pulling out at the last minuet and 1 just not turning up :P) i was thanking God. We started off with playing funky games like "I've never..." and get to know you activities like the M&M game. The younger kids were a bit reserved, but loosened up as the night went on and by the time pizza arrived, everyone was having fun. We settled down to watch the first movie "The Incredibles" and then played a few more games when it was over.

The under 15's and a few of the St Lukes crowd left at about 10 and while waiting for a late dad to pick up the last of them, we talked about Baptism and what it means for us and why we do it. There was some interesting points raised and it was a fairly comfortable atmosphere, so i don't think anyone was feeling weird.

We then watched Bruce Almighty (Ben fell asleep hehehe) and then headed to bed at the reasonable hour of 1 am. Despite it being a cold night, most of us slept through till about 6:30 or so when we woke up to make pancakes (marshmellow ones!!) and then clean up our mess.

Talking to people afterwards, most were glad to hear the night had been a success. Others were surprised and I just wonder if God can keep pulling off surprises for them - will they change their thinking and jump on board to help out? I wonder what it will take to make someone who continues to doubt that things will turn out all right if you trust God really believe that he will come through for them?

As for me,

"I have told all your people about your justice. I have not been afraid to speak out, as you, O Lord, well know. I have not kept the good news of your justice hidden in my heart; I have talked about your faithfulness and saving power. I have told everyone in the great assembly of your unfailing love and faithfulness."

Psalm 40:9&10


It's Steve as Jonah and me as a Japanese Sea Star!!

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Yay! Post 100!! How crazy is that! And so, as i listen to fiona complain to me about how she needs a second job so she can have something to do on her days off, i'm going to try to be as detailed as i can and tell everyone how MYC 2007 was.

On a side note, for some unknown reason while i was gone, we have aquired "Die Hard: with a vengance" which i think is the funniest thing ever and subsequently - fiona and i are watching it now!

MYC started last Friday the 6th of July with me waking up and knowing i had to pack that morning in about 2.5 hours. Lots of brainstorming and help from mum meant that at 1:00, Steve and I were ready to go. We picked up Aleacia from Garden city and were on the way. Most of the Griffith people got their early, (thanks to me telling everyone to be there at 3:30 :D when things didn't start until 4) and so we took a walk to the beach and came back in time to get everyone registared. Griffith didn't take too long to do that (again, my earlyness as well as most ppl having paid most of their money before hand) and so we hung around until things got started.

Griffith had 22 people there full time and then another 8 part timeers and we had 4 people from Logan turn up as well which was stellar. From 5 full timers last year and 3 part timers to 34 people all up this year - God is amazing and to be apart of his work is so totally cool.

Friday night we had "get to know you games" where we got into a group of random people and then had to do a scavanger hunt with the people in the group. Between us we had to come up with things like, most numbers stored in a phone, most family photos, biggest hole in the sock, longest string of shoelaces. We had a really small group and lost almost everything but it was still fun. We then had our speaker for the conference give us his first talk. He is part of the international youth ministries coordinator for Scripture Union.

He wanted to talk to us about Kingdom culture and how we can live it in a world that opposes it. Through out the week he gave us examples of people in the bible living Kingdom Culture, but first of all he took us through a really great example that showed that we ourselves are part of God's big story. This is probabaly what the thing that i got most of all of his talks, but i feel like it was somethign that was worth alot.

First of all, he drew a timeline of things as they stand in the bible. At the start he put "creation" and at the end he put "Revelation (Jesus coming back)" We then called out events in the bible and added them to the timeline. Something that we noticed as people called out things like "david" "samson" "jesus birth" "pentecost" that loads of things happened in the bible, and then after pentecost and the establishment of the first churches - we've got nothing. And the things that fit in that part - is us.

Another thing about this timeline is that from the garden of eden, to the time when Jesus comes again - there is a line of evil that also runs parrallel to the timeline which we live in. And that's the culture that we live in, but it's also the culture that we need to live against if we want to live God's culture.



That night i went to bed fairly early. The rooms we were in were really funky (different to the dorms of last year) they had three beds in 2 of the corners stacked on each other as well as 2 in the other corners as standard bunks. In the middle was a box pillar thing with shelves for things. It was cool. There were 3 asian chicks in my room from QUT, as well as Shannan, Emily and Rachel (who instead of sleeping in their beds slept together because it was warmer) Kelly and then on the second day, we got Kellie from casldine too - she was late becuase she went to the korean Campus Mission conference. Super cool.


Day 2 started with optional prayer - the Griffith QUT campsite had over 30 people there which is cool as to see. We had so many people that it was a bit hard to pray because people just kept on coming in, but it was cool none the less. Breakfast was yummy and i got Steve and Jon kilchester orginised to do the powerpoint by getting them to the main room early and then our day started. Ross and Kristin, who were MC-ing got everyone excited about the day and instigated the "Love seat of Love" where thoes who got the random trivia question of the day right could chose another person to share the "love seat of love" with. They got cookies and milk on the first day. pretty cute.

After some worship with a great worship band and Clayton, talking about how the Corinthians struggeled with living Kingdom Culture in their world, we had quiet times, morning tea and then into Trainings. At this point, steve and i nicked off for a while and went to Katie's wedding. It was on top of a mountian at a winery, and it was a beautiful day. Everyone looked lovley (as you do at a wedding) and i'm gald it was not a windy day or the bride would have been freezing.

After the wedding we skipped merrily home down the mountian and back to the end of some free time at MYC. I had a nap and woke up just in time for the afternoon electivies. I wondered for a while if i really wanted to go, or if i wanted to just roll back over and sleep some more, but in the end, i got up and went off to "Depression".

I'm really glad i went to the elective, the speaker Marylin Cook, was a councler and really well experinced in dealing with people who have depression. It was a really informative session with alot of practical advice on what to do when people you know have depression.

After dinner we had Saturday night Games which was a "MYC Amazing Race". Some of the challanges were really grose, and some were intereesting. Steve's team was coming first and got the "Fast Forward" which they took and consequently made them loose the game. My team came somewhere in the middle. Firstly we had to decode a message which sent us to the pools and then we went to the BBQ's where one of our team had to eat 3 dry weatbix, a raw onion and then a cup of straight cordial. In that Order. If they failed half way through, someone else had to take over from the start. We were really encouranging our guy Gordon to make it. The guy on steve's team (James flyn coincidently) took their onion whole - amazing stuff).

After that we got another code which took us to the tennis courts and then to complete a 3 legged obstacle course and off to the car park. This was probably the hardest of challenges because we had to count all the wheels in the car park and they had sneakily added the 4 wheels of the rubbish bins. After a few tries we were on our way though and on to the last challange which was to have everyone standing with one foot in the air and the other on a square of news paper. In the end, i crouched in the middle and everyone leaned in on me to get their balance to make it. :D Yay for being small.

The night was then over - a few more silly games and we were off for supper. Another fairly early night for me - after a few cups of hot water and some socializing in the dining room. After everyone had split up for the night, mostly everyone hung out in the dining room or at the beach. Jim rawson always brings loads of games to play so someone always has a game of Risk out and there are usually multipul card games going on as well. The griffith Girls in room 9 chilled there for a while with loads of junk food and Sarah's mp3 player plugged into some speakers.



Sunday started with some more optional prayer - but this one a bit more orginised than the last. For some reason we took my suggestions to be in groups of 3 and pray around. It was good though, quality time with God before breakfast. Breakfast followed with the ususal worship, and speaker, this time Clayton addressing Ruth (giving us a dramatized version of the whole book) and talking about who lived "Kingdom Culture" and how.

After our Quiet Time and morning tea we hit training again. I joined in with the "Evanglism as a Way of Life" guys (led by Emily and Ross) who were pretty over numbers as it was (some not so great orginisng when it came to training but anyway). It was good to talk about ideas of how we could create interest in the gospel and how to have spiritual conversations with our friends in every day life.

Any time i found my self in listening situation, i did my hand excersizes which helped streach out my muscles. I've almost gotten full movement back which is exciting and the scar is fading a bit and the lumps are going down. yay!

After Lunch on Sunday we did something that was probabaly the scariest thing for most people: Outreach.

Most people did Door knocking, but for thoes with "serious issues" (aka Sarah, Abby, Shannan, Me and Steve) with door knocking - we went down to the beach and talked to randoms down there about their spiritual lives. It was really intersting talking to some people (steve and i went together (after Jon decided it was nesscary to remind us that "this is not a date" :P)) becuase alot of them were old blokes, with lots of time on their hands. Three of the guys Steve and I talked to had good princiables - 2 of them even said they were catholic, but at the same time said things like "but i don't believe in heaven".

Hearing what some of these guys said to us made me realise that no matter how old you are - you can still be lost. Some of thoes guys had just as much of an idea of what to do about getting to heaven as some people we talk to at uni. It doesnt' matter how old you are - people can still be lost.

Shannan and abby had a fairly bad experince with a guy who ranted for 20 mins to them about how all religions are formed on greed and Sarah and Jon talked to 3 or 4 sets of Locals who gave them really good talks.

Coming back to camp, we heard how the door knockers went - and heard some amazing stories about how people had wittnessed others come to Christ. It was exciting to hear about it, but i'm glad i went with the beach mission. I don't think i would have liked to door knock agin.


After dinner, we had the Prayer and Worship night which was led by Daniel from Griffith. The night started with some worship and then a skit on the Lord's prayer performed by Shannan and Daniel as the voice of God. (funny moment when Daniel got up after playing the voice of God from behind the scenes and started talking and we were like "AHH!! IT's GOD!!!" heheeh)

We then prayed through the Lord's prayer and took time out to really think about what each line meant. The worship band played songs through out which was really cool too. Alot of people got heaps out of the night and while i was sad it wasn't more of a "team Griffith" thing, i did too.

Supper and then bed that night and i realised that even though i was trying to get to bed before 11 each night, it was slowly getting later and later and i was getting more and mroe sleep deprived. *sigh* the goodness of camp :P

Optional Prayer on Monday saw numbers dwindiling, but still a good turn out of 20 or so people. Breakfast, Worship and our Speaker all followed as ususal, Today Clayton tried to define what he meant by "Kingdom Culture" and didn't do so well. I think he was trying to convey it more as an idea, but what we really wanted was a definitive... if that makes sense. Then he moved on to talking about how David lived Kingdom Culture but also failed at it sometimes.

After Quiet Time and morning tea we started our second lot of training sessions: I was going to do Personal discipleship Making 2, but with only 5 ppl expected and 10 manuals (just incase) as well as 16 people turning up, i figured it'd be better if i joined the Advanced Core Group Leading, which only had 3 others.

I got alot out of this training, because we had a small group and we could share alot of experince stuff which was good to hear different senarios and think of ways we could attack them. Something else we did was to draw pictures of how we see our leading now and what we would want to change. Mine consisted of me with a big speach bubble going "blah blah blah" and then a second picture with everyone else having speach bubbles that said "Disscussion" and mine saying "good questions"

For some unknown reasons when we talked about these (mine and eveyrone elses' pictures) it led onto if our family memebers are Christians or not and then we took time out of the training then and there to pray about it. It was really good. I had a chat to Bill (training leader, UQ missionary) too about gender segregated Bible Studies and he gave quite good insite for me. I'm ok with them, provided we arne't kicking other people out. I think when it comes to griffith - they would be good if we had a bible study every day that was over flowing and had to be slpit that way, but as it is, we have 2 or 3 bible studies a week and we can't control who will come to what. So the seggregation is impractical... but anyway!

After lunch we had Campus time which was exciting. I presented the idea of the Servant Team to the students and asked them to vollenteer to help out with orginising things like socials, prayer nights and outreaches. We had over 80% of our students wnat to help wout with Outreach and Evanglisim which was really cool to see.


It's great to know that the students we have on board want to help getting the message of Christ out to other students. This time went over and i brainstormed things i needed to orginise - like who is leading what bible study and when they would be. other than that i didn't really sign up for anything much - i already have much to do and i'm sure with my overseaing capabilities, i'll be involved in more than i need to be. :D besides - with me stepping out - others can step up!

After doing that, i challanged Steve to a few games of Speed and then we played scrabble and got new shoelaces for Kelly and took Rochelle who was stressed out about being sick to get some drugs. Then it was dinner time and after that time for Summer Project talks. Steve went to a dinner with Andrew Bryant (National Director for SL) about working with SL, but i was like... meh :D i came at the end and was genrally disruptive - too much chocolate cake during the day for me. Summer Project talks were interesting. I drank 4 glasses of water and got pretty happy for them. Steve and I went to the Mission Megumi talk - the Project for Japan.

A big feature of the Megumi project is that it's a bit of a trial run for people who might want to do a year of Stint in japan so it could be interesting if i want to do that. I am really excited about doing Mission Megumi - anyone who has any ideas of how i can help God raise my support money then let me know!! I'll need everyone i can get on board praying as much as possible.

I feel like i'm just saying "and then ... and then.... and then..." alot, but there is alot to get through and i'm ranting heaps as it is!

Tuesday morning saw a few more drop off from prayer, but the time passed quickly as we gave thanks to God for all the amazing things that had happened. Standard morning, breakfast, worship, speaker, quiet times, morning tea and then we finished off our training. After lunch we had our group photos and then a little bit more free time. Steve and i spent most of the free time preparing to MC the Challange dinner that night - When Kristin asked us i burst out laughing and couldn't stop. I thought it was so funny that we were asked. Probabaly the funniest moment of camp. hehehe i cuckel now just thinking of it. :)

after that, i had another nap and went to another elective - one on humor in evanglism. I left early, but one of the points that the speaker made was taht if we appear to be sad every day - then people will think our religion is sad. If we appaer to be happy every day - then that's what people will think of our religion. He also said that if anyone insultued religious people it was Jesus and coincidently i read Luke 11 last night and honestly it's like "Jesus insults every religious person at a dinner party". :D so funny.

Then i got ready for our costume challange dinner. I was a Japanese Sea Star and Steve was Jonah (in the belly of the whale :D)


















Tim went as "under a water melon" and here he is with Amy who was a Nyad... water nymphy thing. :D





Abby was "Finding Emo"

















There were some other really groovy costumes, Gary was a classic - he had a bottle of water taped to his hat and he was "under water"



Steve lost his voice half way through the night, so i had to man the MC-ing fort with his aid. His JOnah costume would have been the best costume of the night, but as he was MC and the Judge - he couldn't win. As a result "Judge Jonah" and i held a cheering vote to decided. There was also a language equation game to play (which i announced in Japanese and Steve translated).

The people who went to Campus Mission 2007 In Korean told us how that was. They said it was amazing to be there with so many people who were all worshiping God. We also had a team from Papaua New Guinie who sang for us. It was amazing to see them sing because they were just so passionate about singing praise for Jesus. They sang with harmonies and just simple repeated phrases lead by one of the guys. It was fantastic.

Again it was a tough choice to go to bed early, but by the time i wraped everything up and even thought about crawling into bed, it was already 11:30, so it was a good choice. A few others headed to the beach for one last night out there and alot of people hung out in the dinning room playing worship songs on guitars and talking about God. The bonds that were made between everyone were really cool. It's always a bit sad as camp winds down becuase you know that thoes times aren't going to come aorund again soon enough.

Steve and I made the final effort to get up at 5:30 and go visit the beach for a sunrise before we left. It was a beautifl and cold morning but so special. Even though prayer was supposed to be at the other campsite with the UQ and Linc-ers, we stayed at our dining hall and played cards giving God our conversational prayer and praise through Pslams.

Clean up and our final session finished far too early, And then MYC was over, people were piling into cars and promising to meet at Maccas and taking more last minuet photos.


And that was MYC for one more year. I hope that satisfies.... i feel i've missed so much, but at the same time - i've written more than ever before. :D Happy reading!

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Do I want to be with you as the years come and go?
Only forever if you care to know.
Would I grant all your wishes and be proud of the task,
Only forever if someone should ask.
How long would it take me to be near if you beckon,
Offhand I would figure, less than a second.
Do you think Ill remember how you looked when you smiled,
Only forever, thats putting it mild.

A little bit of Frank Sinatra for you - i did try to find it on Youtube but they didn't have it there!!

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Update number 2.

Well i'm home from hospitial now which is definatly a step towards recovery. I went in yesterday, they put me in a gown, put me to sleep (i laughed while they jabbed the needle into my are and then shuffled it aroung trying to find a vein before starting again in a different place.) and when i woke up i had a new plast and they were looking after me in recovery.

i got wheeled to my ward where anything i tried to drink (water) just got chucked back up again, so i settled with not having any dinner. Steve came to visit me, as did mum and dad which was nice, but i was still sleepy from the morphine. I had a low blood pressure which they checked every half hour to make sure it was still low, and then when the nurses changed at 12am, they decided to do something about it and my bed was tilted up, a new drip put in and i was encouraged to drink more.

After the night of broken sleep i woke up and ate some breakfast and the talkitive lady in the next bed kept talking to me as i slept and read. Then i was sent down to the physio people who re-mealted my splint and gave it back to me again. Steve came to visit and we sat in the lounge for a while before he left and i went out and got picked up by dad.

All in all, i'm closer to recovery than ever, 2 new screws in my hand and a nice scar on the back. :) in 1 week i go back for physio and i can start using my hand again! yay!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Today marks one year and 6 mths sice Steve and i started going out. I get sick of people asking me how long we have been going out because to me it dosen't matter so much, Steve and I are together so who cares for how long right? But I was talking to Carl, a friend from work, on friday night, and he said to me that 18 mths isnt much when you've been with someone for 10 years but at the same time it was an achievement, because in the world today, people tend to take the easy way out when it comes to relationships and hardly anyone, it seems, wants to approach problems and try to work through them before they give up. [man i write long sentences]

I don't really know where i'm going with this exccept that i'm thankful that Steve is the kind of guy who wants to try to fix things rather than just walk away. I also think that we would be no where near where we are now in our relationship if it wern't for God, because to me, he is the ultimate example of comittment. This sounds all crazy and comittal, but when I see the kids at afterschool care and notice how in playing red letter suddenly they have an option about which of their parents names they have to use i wonder at all the things that have changed since i was a kid and then looking after my own kids to come suddenly seems like an arduous task. [can you tell i'm still in assignment mode?]

How on earth will i cope having to bring up children when all these new issues get worse in another 5 years? All i can say is that I think thats why God made parenting a 2 person job. And i'm so glad that even if i fail as a parent to my kids, God will never walk away from them, just like he never walked away from me.

So, with things the way they are, i'm thankful that in my relationship God is the one I love the most. And i'm thankful that he has given me some one as caring, kind, thoughtful, manly and most of all Godly, as Steve, to love as well.

Monday, May 21, 2007

update time!!

so my hand remains broken, and will probably do so for some time yet. i went to see the hand surgon last friday and he told me i had a spiral fracture on my third bone in my right hand. this, he told me, needs surgery to fix. So i'm booked in for the 29th of may (next tuesday) to get 2 screws placed in my hand so that it will heal nicely. he tells me i'll also have a nice scar. :)

After he told me the most depressing news (i wont be able to use my hand for at least 2 mths) i sent me across the hall to get a fancy new splint which is loads lighter and brighter than the first one was. it looks a bit like this:



my hand with out said funky new cast looks a bit like this:



some nice bruising if i do say so myself so i hope you can see it :)

finally on a more serious note, my 2 exams are getting deffered untill start of next semester and so the only things to overcome are writing japanese with my left hand and typing my 2500 word opera assignment with one hand. God is great and though i am pressed, i'm not crushed.

thanks to everyone who has been praying.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

this post is going to take a long time for me to type. this is because i'm typing one handed. why you ask? i'll tell you why...

last night, i was leaving a work training session on work place health and safty when i tripped over on some uneven cement and hurt my fingers. ouch, i thought, and while my hand got number and number, and i realised i couldn't grip the stearing wheel, i called my home and fiona and dad came and got me.

we went home and dad got his wallet and then we drove to mater to get looked at. we didn't wait too long but it was about an hr later that they told me that i had broken a bone in my hand and that they would splint it and send me to a hand sergon to get it seen too. it was then that i asked for some pain killer, so that when they were pushing my hand into the right shape it wouldn't hurt, but they said "ok, we will give you some to take home" :P

i laughed hysterically while they plastered my hand.

now i'm at home with an appointment for the hand dr tomorrow, and the depressing thought that i might be facing exams with only a usable left hand. :(

any prayer would be much appreciated.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

One thing i've noticed with kids, and espcially last friday when we were all cooped up in the hall, is that when one hurts another purposly, they will run away. But when someone accidently trips someone else, or wacks them with a ball, the first thing they do is come over and say sorry and make sure they are alright.

Made me think, the last time i hurt someone - did i run away, or i was i there asking if they were alright?

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

I am not a fan of Psalm 23. In fact, I’d go as far to say that I don’t like it. At all. For me, it’s way too lovely and well known, as well as being an odd number. Give me Psalm 24, or 148 any day, but “The lord is my shepherd,” meh, lucky us. I’ve heard that so many times that I don’t want to hear it any more. But in reality, so often, that is what I do need to hear.

But just because I know the words with my head – does that mean I don’t need to know them as a message for my heart?

Psalm 23 contains so many promises that God has given us. It provides a more than adequate description of who we are, and who God is to us. But with every time we hear this Psalm and all it’s metaphorical glory, it’s another time that we let the awesome promises of God fade into every day repetition.

So when I realised that this was what God wanted me to talk about today, I had to dig deep to find the patience to listen to God as he taught me not to just dismiss something I have heard a few thousand times, but to really take the words from my head to my heart and know them as his message to me.

Promise 1: the lord is my shepherd

“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.”

Line one could almost be a summary for the rest of the Psalm. And sadly today I’m probably going to let it. There just isn’t enough time to talk in detail about every line of this psalm, so bare with me as I try to take just a few and really discover what God has for us.

Dictionary.com defines a shepherd as “one who herds, guards, tends and guides sheep”. And if that’s what the Lord does for me, then really, I don’t need anything.

In this life, God is looking after me. Just as king David would have looked after his sheep when he was a youth, God wants to look after me. He wants to take us all, in our flock, to the green meadows by the streams where we can rest and renew our strength for his glory. I don’t need to worry about where I’m going, or who is coming. I don’t need to consider that there might not be enough food for us all there, or even stress about where everyone will be sleeping. Jesus says (Matt 6) don’t worry about your clothes, don’t worry about your food. “Look at the birds, the father feeds them, and aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?” God is herding us to safety. Trust him and there is a lot less to worry about.

The Lord, my shepherd is also guarding me from danger. Even though I am walking somewhere new, somewhere I might not know, even somewhere dark that makes me scared for my life, God is there. The truth is that we are all walking thought a dark valley like this. The world is full of sin and we are living here. Thankfully God is our shepherd and is guiding us so we don’t fall. When we continually rely on our shepherd to guide us, falling is much harder.

The lord our shepherd is not only guiding us to safety, protecting us from danger and making sure we stick to the path, but he is also filling our lives with blessings. Our cups are overflowing with the wine he is pouring us. He is anointing our heads with oil. This is so significant for a shepherd because oil keeps the sheep safe from bugs which are deterred by the smell, as well as cleaning the wounds sustained in the days travel. God really is looking after us!

More than that, anointing with oil is used continually through the bible. Saul and David are both anointed as kings, Jesus the Christ or Messiah in Jewish or Greek translates as the Anointed one. In Acts the apostles anoint people when they appoint them places of responsibility and honour caring for the rest of the flock. 1st Peter calls us to live like anointed people of God.

What an honour it is to know that God, our shepherd is guiding us, keeping us safe, taking our fears and worries away and then on top of that anointing us as an honour! He loves us so much that he wants to bend down and anoint us as part of his flock!

The key to all of these promises found in only the first line of this Psalm, is that we need to believe it. We can all repeat the line “the Lord is my Shepherd” as much as we like, but taking it from knowledge in our head to a belief in our heart is another matter.

It says in Luke 12: “Don’t be concerned about what to eat and drink, your father already knows your needs.” God already knows our needs and he is providing for us more than is adequate. Because God is our shepherd, the one who is there to look after us and see we make it home safely we don’t need to worry, we don’t need to fear, we have all we need.

Promise 2: God’s love pursues us

I’d like to share with you now something I learnt when I was in Japan. This was probably about September of 2004 and I would have been in Japan for about 7 or so months. My best friend was a girl called Haruka who used to catch the train with me every day.

As well as catching the train with me everyday she was in my class, so we spent quiet a lot of time together. When I got stressed out about not understanding or assignments, she would be the one who would help me out.

One day she was feeling sick, so to say "thanks for putting up with me and i hope you feel better" after school, I went to the shops and got her a hair tie, and the I went to the train station, and I waited at the entrance that I thought she would come in by.

Now, as I was standing there in the cold, waiting, I had all these doubts nagging at me; "what if she felt so sick she went home early and I’m waiting for a person who will never come?" "What if she uses a different entrance?" "What if I didn’t see her come round?" Train stations in Japan are huge, and any one of these things could have happened.

And it occurred to me that that’s what Jesus was probably like, waiting for me to come round, to realise that He was the only way and all I needed.

He had Satan going "She’s not coming, I’ve managed to trick her to go the other way with some chocolate" "She's not coming, she’s already gotten on the train going in the other direction."

And it was tough for Him to stand there, waiting for me, as all the busy people brushed passed Him, nocked Him down, stood on Him and ripped His clothes, He stood there anyway because He believed I would come. He knew I would eventually come and He loved me enough to wait for me to come - no matter how many detours I took - no matter how late I was.

When I read Psalm 23, and the last verse, it reminded me of this story. Of how much Jesus went through to wait for me, but also how much love he had to have for me to do it. But, that last verse has much more than Jesus waiting for us. He’s not just standing around knowing that eventually we will come by.

The line reads: “Surely your goodness and unfailing love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.”

The final passage of this Psalm is probably the one we cling to most. God’s love will follow us. But actually, the word follow has a better interpretation. The original Hebrew word translates better to the English word pursue.

Put that in the phrase and re-read it. “Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life…” Jesus is not just waiting around for us, he is not just following us, he is pursuing us. He is chasing us down with everything he has. He wants so much to bring us home to him. God doesn’t want to see any of us fall away, he wants us so much for us to be the sons and daughters he created us to be.

God wants us to live in his house forever, where we belong. Luke 12 says: “don’t be afraid little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the kingdom.” That is the inheritance that God has planned for us – his kingdom, it’s where he wants to us to be and like a shepherd with his sheep, he is going to guide us, tend to us, protect us, and pursue us with his love, so that we can be there with him.

I have 2 questions for you today: are you going to believe the promises of Psalm 23 or will they just stay as ones you know in your head but don’t take to heart?

Is the Lord your shepherd?

Thursday, April 19, 2007

This sort of thing
This sort of dream
This is what I’d want for
If saying no to my dreams
Wasn’t the easiest way.

All of these
Most of those
And even sometimes
When I’m not pretending
That where I want to be is anywhere but here

Translate me
And make sense
Of the rubbish I say
Make my heart
And my direction
Clear for where you want me

This sort of thing
This sort of dream
Could it be what is meant for me?

Give me your dream Lord
Even when I don’t believe that
Your dream can come true
For me.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Something i've read before many times was in my journal reading tonight and God in his glory really spoke to me and helped me understand more than just the story.

"And the seeds that fell on the good soil represent honest, good-hearted people who hear God's word, cling to it and patiently produce a huge harvest." [Luke 8:15]

To hear God's word: Am I listening and ready to hear God speak to me through his word, through his people or am I too busy doing things?

To cling to it: When i hear it - do i remember? when i read it - am i taking it in? Is God's word and truth the basis of my life and the document i can refrence with his Spirit?

To patiently Produce: am i helping others to grow? To produce we need to water, nurture, train, prune and love. Am i using God's strength to do so? It's not a quick growth but a slow process. Am i helping the harvest?

Lord, use me as a good soil! I want you to grow in me.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Well Show one is over. My Goodness, i'm exaushted. I think the continuall rehursals over the last 2 and a half mths and the insane build up to the first show has finally hit me. Even when i left i thought i was ok, but it's just hit me.

What also has hit me was the amazing amount of support that i have in my family and my frineds. Everyone else has about... 20 people max coming to see them, and alot of thoes haven't booked yet. I have 14 plus 18 plus 24 people coming to see me and they are the people who have booked.

God has really blessed my life with people who are here to help me and support me. Even though i so often seem to suffer from too many friends syndrome and have to say no and feel bad about not being able to be there for everyone (including being in 4 places at once) my friends amazingly still want to stand by me.

So thank you to everyone who came, is coming and is continuing to support me in this show and almost everything else i attempt to do. Special mention to Steve who somehow ends up being last on my list of people to see, but manages to love me none the less. Thank you.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Man I love hanging out with people who love God just as much as me. Needless to say, camp was awesome!! I woke up thinking - Yeah! camp is finally here!! - on Monday and i was not wrong. Camp was there and it was fantastic!! Following Steve up proved he had a strange obsession with going around round about a few too many times, and after a short, but scary moment where everyone in my car appreciated their assurance of salvation, we made it up to camp.

Not really needing to be there at 10 in the morning, most of Monday was spent having free time. :D the morning was filled with some quality jam sessions with me on Piano, Elizabeth on flube and Kris on Guitar, with random people singing in the back ground. After we tired of this, Elizabeth and I went to "town" and picked up some fish and chips for everyone.

By the time we finished lunch, Jasmine's car full of girls arrived and we played games untill about 2:00 when it was free time at QUT camp, so we wandered down to vist some people. We played volleyball for a bit, I had a chat with Jim (man he's a wise guy :)), we were invited to afternoon tea and then we headed back up to chill out some more. During this chill out, the power went off (which included the pumps that gave us water) and i had to drive to "town" again to pick some up. On the way back - the power came back on :P

At 6 we wandered down to the LINC camp where we were having dinner and our final campers arrived. The 2 americans were in mourning as their team had lost the superbowl. That night after dinner, we played a number of funky games (Rachel has an endless supply of them!!) including the snort game, the wah game and the story game. :D

During this whole time, we ate huge amounts of chocolate and sugar and ended up not going to be untill rather late. Nathaniel got eaten alive by mozzies and text emily at 3 am telling her he hated this place. Rachel put in a vote for a "bug free" campsite next year :P i keep telling her that while she's in Australia - there is no such place :D

The rest of camp (sorry melissa i'm loosing detail) was just as much fun. Ross's talks on Vision and Evanglisim were really insitful. Ross has the nickname "Reverend Ross" becuase he spent a year as an intern just following his pastor around, thinking about becoming a preist. Our training on Surveys and sharing the KGP (which inspired this moment) went fantasticlly, as did our planning for 0-week. I really feel like i have a great team this year ready for us to share the excitement of God on campus.

Memorable moments included:
Falling out of bed on the first night. on the way down i smacked my chin dead onto the chair beside the bed (i was on the bottom bunk) before my knees hit the floor. Elizabeth woke up and asked if i was ok. by that time i was kneeling on the floor still trying to decide.

Ross putting Abby's pen up his nose, and when we noticed Abby saying "that's my pen!" but when Ross tried to give it back to her, the quick correction to "that WAS my pen"

The endless number of Cups and chocolate wrappers that were left around as we spent our days binging on tea and chocolate. (humm chocolate!)

Fun moments included:
Playing Marfia untill unGodly hours of the night, trying to convince Nathaniel that he shouldn't kill me becuase i was the Cop and Emily being a cold marfia for the 4th time in the row.

Abby doing kungfu streaches at 6:30 in the morning while Jazz and i ate "before breakfast" sinckers. (hummm chocolate)

Singing Happy birthday to Nathaneil while he was still in bed on Tuesday morning. Suprising him at morning tea with a cake, eating all but one peice which was left for Steve (the maker of the cake) which Nathaniel promptly forgot and ate 2 hours later.

Edgar doing a great job of vaccuming the whole place we made a mess of, and the amazing way we all cleaned it up so well.



Bring on 2007 at Griffith!! we are ready to take the campsus for Christ!!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

after yet again breaking my car some more i feel like i have the most serious case of human stupidity ever. I really just want to skip all this learning and all this chaning and all this stupidness and go straight to the way God sees me. Why can't i fast forward the growing and just stand before God and have him say "you are just how i always imgained"?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZG1en6IZZY&mode=related&search=

[i was going to be fancy and put in a link, but i'm too silly :P]

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

13/01/07

Hebrews 11:39
"All of these people earned a good repuatation because of their faith, yet not one of them recieved all that God had promised."

Faith is so hard in itself, but even harder to comprehend is that when it comes to God, sometimes we aren't going to live to see what he promises us.

Yet no one laughed at the memory of Abraham, Jacob, etc, after they died, saying they had wasted their lives for something that didn't come, on the contray, even though it did come to pass later on, they were considered to have great faith not great stupidity, for believing in something they never saw.

God I want a faith like that!

I don't want to be worried that people will laugh at me now, like people laughed at Noah when he was building the ark, but I want to follow you so much that when I die and your judgement comes, people will say - so that's what she was waiting for.

Friday, January 12, 2007

My Timetable

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My timetable is as yet unfinished. It currently spans over 4 days, many hours and also includes a clash :D

Yay for uni!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

The grass is green,
The sky is blue,
There's not a cloud,
To spoil the view,
But it's raining,
It's raining,
In my heart.