Thursday, November 17, 2005

Heart Of Worship

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath
I wrote a song. I was supposed to be studying, but everything that has been happening lately, everything on my mind just got to me and I wrote a song. Even then, at least I was doing something. After that, I was playing tetris which almost completely equates to doing nothing.

So long I have wanted to post, but every time I just write crap about life and its not even worth me typing. Then when I type about God, everything matters. Its all important.

So now, I just want to know God, what is Your plan for me? Honestly I don't know what to do and I feel like anything I do will just be so silly and will end up making things worse. I just want you to take over and do things Your way. I'm sick of trying it my way cos honestly I'm stumbling around blind.

I'm such a child and that's exactly how I feel now. Like I'm reaching for the chocolate jar on the shelf but I'm too short to reach it.

Can You give me what I'm looking for? Can You give me the knowing inside me of which decision is the right one? All I ask right now if for You to give me all I need.

Could you show me,
The way to go?
Will you answer my prayer?
Can you help me
I'm longing to know
Are you really there?

Friday, November 11, 2005

I was watching "30 days" last night. its a show where they take soemone out of their ususal environment and put them somewhere else for 30 days to give them a new perspective. last night, they took an american guy and put him in a muslim community for 30 days. it was intersting.

Got me thinking abotu the difference between other religons and Christianity. God doenst say to us "if you forfill this criteria, (eg wear a hat, pray heaps, go to church, eat certain food) then you can come to heaven." The first thing God said to me was: "I love you so much"

"I love you so much
I love you so much I created you in My image
I love you so much I made plans for your life
I love you so much I made sure you could get into eternity
I love you so much I am preparing you for eternity now
I love you so much that one day you will be in eternity with Me"

And thats just the start.

I guess the question now is: "how do we respond to a love like that?"

"Over the mountians and the seas
Your river runs with love for me
And i will open up my heart
And let the Healer set me free

Im happy to be in the truth
And i will daily lift my hands
For i will always sing
Of when your love came down

I will sing of Your love forever"

Thursday, November 03, 2005

wow! 20 posts go me! :D ok so im not here to post much right now, in fact im jsut going to paste and copy song lyrics, but none the less, it has to be done. :D these are great :D by Hawk Nelson - im so impressed. and i know as you read you might think... is she ok? but really its not how im feeling - its just an awesom song (even awesomer with music :D) anwyay enough of me babaling on, i have to go write some kick ass story, please enjoy these great lyrics :D

Can you hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need you more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone anymore

When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ll be going wrong so far

Tale me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not along anymore
Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And its getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

And You’ll be here forever, forever You’ll stay
And You promised to love me, You’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, You’ll love me for always

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

i just have to say that dancing last night was alot of fun. :) it was insanlly overfilled with guys thouhg :P there was proabbly about 35 guys and 15 girls... hahahaha how insane!! and my leg was sore, but cos there was such a shortage of girls - guys just kept asking for a dance!! insane as!! i danced wiht John again 8-) absolutly classic as. he kept being flashy and stiring me so i woudl spin more, so i jsut kept baiting him :D it was great. (OH my goodnes!!! IBM jsut called me!!! what insane japanese!!! ahahahha!!! man it was funny!!!) he was spinning me and i was like "stop it!" so hes like "no you can do 2 spins, so do them" and i said "i have a sore leg!!" and he said "yeah right!" but then later he started to beleive me, and he was like "well you can still dance" and then he did liike 4 consecutive spins in a row, so i said "flashy flashy, its good that evne though i have a sore leg, we at least have you to do the spinning for us" hahahaha. ok so it doenst sound as funny as it was - i guess you had to be there - but man it was funny! :D this sorta open hatred thing we have goign is good. i think its good cos he knows im not impressed by his stupid flashy moves and he knows im an ok dancer - so he helps improve me. :P hehehe its good :d